Ch-Ch-Changes!

I had restarted this blog for a few reasons. One, I think the information from my daily life could be something that those going through similar issues can relate to on a number of levels. As boring as it may seem to most, I know that I'm not alone in the amount of pain, frustration and isolation that I feel. Also, I think it's good to raise awareness for things that millions of people have to contend with on a daily basis. Maybe with enough attention focused on the problem, something would be done about it. Mostly, I felt ashamed that I had let a passion of mine fall by the wayside while I was going through some really tough periods. As I recovered from some physically and emotionally drained decisions, I realized that I needed to get back into the things that brought me the most joy and also defined me as a person. Writing.

For as long as I can remember, I've always been doing one of two things. Either I have been tucked away in a corner somewhere with a book in my hands or I've been creating stories of anything and everything. As I grew older, those passions were only reinforced and I found myself wanting to be an author so bad I dreamed it nearly every night. Then life got in the way as it usually does and I had to put the writing/reading on the back burner. When I started to get really sick, writing helped me to get through some of the confusion and frustration of having the familiar and dreams torn away from me. I held onto the dream of doing something with the writing through the worst of times that the PsA put me through. I achieved a lifelong goal of writing a novel over the course of seven years while going through all the tests, medicines and what-ifs.

Once my brother became seriously ill during a Lupus flare, I turned again to my writing to help me through. I had to keep focused on something other than the fact he might not make it through this time. I was able to maintain that distraction until the moment he slipped away from us. After that, it's taken me nearly 6 years to let myself feel enough to write again. In recent months, I have made the decision to take a leap of faith and do something with the writing no matter how much pain and health trouble I have. I will have my dream some how, some way.

Because I have rekindled the fire for this blog and have started a book review blog, I have made the decision to stagger the posts. The only exception will be my daily quote posts. They will go up as usual. My updates here will be on Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday with the other days being reserved for my book blog. Of course, holidays will make the calendar weird but we'll deal with it.

Until next time,
Kay