Off to the races.

This weekend is Memorial Day weekend in the US. It's a time when we are supposed to take a few moments to honor the sacrifices that many other men and women have made so that we can sit back, relax with good food and watch a little race called the Indianapolis 500. The race has become quite the tradition in the last few decades. I remember a lot cookouts with family, lots of food and betting who was going to be the winner of the race. There were times when we would guess the correct winner and other times when it really didn't matter.

What I remember most of all is the coming together of family. My parents, siblings, and I would pile into the car and make our way out to my grandmother's house. It was the unspoken official meeting place for all family functions such as birthdays, holidays, special occasions, virtually anything that required family and a good time. My aunt and uncle would bring their families. Soon the entire area was filled with smells, sounds and sights of family.

Those days are memories now in more than one way. Some of the beloved relatives have gone from this physical state. Others are simply too busy with their own lives. Others like me are no longer able to simply make arrangements and show up. There are so many things I have to do in order to leave my house that it takes a long while the day before and day of the event to get ready. Not only do I face that reality but I'm also well aware of the payment I'll make to arthur, aka PsA, for the days after depending on what I actually do during the event.

Times like these, I find myself mourning for the life I had before PsA. At times, all the days and nights run together and I forget what day it is. Without the occasional doctor's appointment and a few distractions, I would simply drift from day to day and not even realize a week or a month has gone by. I do believe renewing these blogs will help me just as much as pushing myself to work on projects for others will help my self-esteem. I have to learn to let the memories guide me and not weigh me down as I go forward.

Have a wonderful weekend no matter where you are.

Until next time,
Kay